So, my friends are doing coke now. Just this past weekend. I think it’s the first time for my boyfriend but several other people I know have done it before and they got an 8ball for the weekend. Mind you, I have no idea where they got it from, who they got it from, or even what the fuck an 8ball really is. For those who are interested, I looked it up and it’s “one eighth of an ounce, or 3.5 grams of cocaine” (Urban Dictionary).
So…I’m not quite sure what to do if anything. I am fairly certain I don’t ever want to touch it but I can’t be actively against it; I am sick of being a nag. It’s their own business what they do to their own bodies. I just don’t want to risk it. Am I too “old fashioned”? Did my parents raise me well Should I make some new friends to fill the gaps when I don’t want to party with them? Who, who is my age and in college, just wants to stay in and do something that doesn’t involve alcohol or drugs? I mean, sure I’ll drink some beer or wine or smoke, but it’s not a hobby of mine. I feel like I could be spending time being much more productive or there could be something else that would be so much more rewarding.
So if I really need to get more, newer, non-druggie, good-influence-on me friends, how do I go about making new friends? I start panicking if I even think about the prospect. I don’t have time (nor money for medication) right now to actually sit down with a therapist once a week but an anxiety group? Is that what I need?
Those who are wiser than me want to provide me with some insight?
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